Too Many to Declare

Sometimes one must write just to understand what is going on in their minds. I feel a little like that tonight. I have always thought myself open to changes...anticipating and looking forward to them, in fact. But, lately, my life has been a blur of changes. I'm sitting here, on the floor of my apt, so thankful. It's hard to believe I've been living in Columbia for almost seven years. SO much has occurred during the transition from high school to college student and from college student to (by God's grace) full functioning adult. It's easy to get lost in a current struggle and forget all that the Lord has done. There's a verse in Psalms 40: 

"Many, O LORD my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare." Psalm 40:5

How could I ever begin to explain all that God has done? Truth is, I can't. Even though I have literally no idea what the future holds, there is an overwhelming sense of peace that I can ONLY attribute to Jesus.

 The other night I was driving to meet a friend...It was dark and I could see the moon beneath a very cloudy night. As I drove further on, a song came on my iPod...quite honestly, it wasn't the best, most uplifting song..AT all. (cough, Avril Lavigne) But it was a song that could have most definitely described my past thought pattern. In the middle of the song I thought, "wait a minute..I do care what the heck.." So I changed it to the next shuffled song...and I almost cried. It was a song I remember listening to in London...at Starbucks, after a really long day. It's called "The Message" by Coldplay. 

My song is love
Love to the loveless shown
And it goes on
You don't have to be alone
Your heavy heart
Is made of stone
And it's so hard to see you clearly
You don't have to be on your own
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
And I'm not gonna say, "I don't mean that"
You're the target that I'm aiming at
Got to get that message home

My song is love
My song is love, unknown
But I'm on fire for you, clearly
You don't have to be alone
You don't have to be on your own

And I'm not gonna take it back
And I'm not gonna say, "I don't mean that"
You're the target that I'm aiming at
And I'm nothing on my own
Got to get that message home

And I'm not gonna stand and wait
Not gonna leave it until it's much too late
On a platform I'm gonna stand and say
That I'm nothing on my own
And I love you, please come home

My song is love, is love unknown
And I've got to get that message home

As I kept driving I noticed the light that I had originally thought was the moon, was actually a spotlight coming from the ground. One light, just one...that illuminated the sky and drew others toward it. It was a beautiful reminder from God. Truth is, when all else is stripped away...friends, family, possessions, apartments, cars, phones, even the very clothes we wear..it's just us and God. I know that the next few months are going to be challenging...but in the midst of all that I don't know, one thing I do. God is God..and He has my back. Love never fails and His light never fades.